I have always been on the opinion that nothing should ever make anyone take their own life, but I have come to realize that there are circumstances surrounding this sort of behaviour.
Our minds and thoughts are very powerful because they determine our every action. Before anything is done we must have thought about it several times…over and over again, and then come to a conclusion.
I believe no one actually wakes up and decides to take their life just like that. The rate of individuals taking their lives in Nigeria is growing rapidly. And you will be like “why did this one do such a stupid thing as this? See his/her reasons self, it doesn’t make sense. He/she is so stupid!!”
Yes they did it based on a very trivial matter, but what you don’t know is that everybody handles stress, situations differently. We are all wired different, our emotions can be very overwhelming. Matters of the heart can be very complicated.
Instead of judging we should instead try to understand. Look deeper and see beyond the surface.
People deal with stress everyday, trauma, heartbreaks, poverty, diseases, etc. In all this one thing stands out…Loneliness. We go through all this alone, different trials in life and we do it alone. Most times we are surrounded by friends, family, even wealth, but we are still alone. How can this be you ask? Here is how:
Lets take Nigeria for example, we joke about everything. No one is willing to help, no one wants to know about your problems. Why should they? They got issues of their own who is going to help with it?
You tell someone your problem, how you feel, what is bringing you down, making you sad, making you cry. Why you acting this way or that. And they laugh at you, they call you weak and stupid, they make jokes and brush it off..telling you to go and sleep or “park well”. They just don’t care. No one listens to you, no one wants to know.
You say how can a correct Nigerian like this go and kill himself? “Wetin for this world one make me commit suicide?” But like i said we handle issues differently, not everyone is made the same.
In foreign countries help is being provided for such cases, there is even a hotline you can call when you start feeling suicidal. But personally i think its still the same in the end…No one listens.
Your friends say call them when you feel better and back to your old self, your family pushes you off to the psychologist because they don’t ” understand you”, the psychologist diagnoses you based on his analysis and gives you several pills to take to “help you cope” and very soon you start abusing these pills because nothing seems to work. Finally you are right back where you started..and still ALONE..trying to deal, trying to find your way back.
You are surrounded by family, friends, people. Laughing and smiling, willing yourself to forget, to let go. You talk and laugh with them but it doesn’t reach your eyes, or soul.
When you finally find someone to talk to..they listen, but don’t listen, they don’t hear you, they don’t make an attempt at understanding, because they don’t see a problem. No one cares.
Things start piling up, from this to that and that. You are over sensitive, you stop laughing, stop being yourself. Instead you are cooped up within yourself, the thoughts keep building up, can’t sleep, no escape, can’t talk to no one about it, no escape. That is when some start doing drugs, gambling, partying, joining bad gangs, stealing, anything to take your mind off, a little piece of your own Euphoria where ever you can find it. Dealing in whatever way you can. Many find escape better than others. In Painting, Music, Dancing, Writing..But it also fades by after a while. And the thoughts fights their way in once again, like demons clawing at your very Soul.
Then one little push, sudden rage about something. You lost a hand at gambling, you can’t remember where you hid the drugs, the drink, your bf/gf suddenly cheated, someone lied, you lost a bet. Something, anything…you can’t take it anymore.
And even though you know it’s a SIN. Even though you know it’s BAD. You do it anyway. Just to escape it all.
DAMN THE CONSEQUENCES.
YOU ARE PAST CARING……..